And it's hard,
it's much harder than I thought it would be, but there's more good than bad and you don't just give up
The Calm Before the Storm
So it's like this. I don't want to spill the entire story because nothing is final yet and I'm not sure if I'd want to share the results with anyone anyway.
It's like this, a huge hurricane is projected to hit Houston in the next week, but there is a chance it could shift and hit Mexico. There's a chance this hurricane is going to tear Houston apart, making us all relocate. There's a chance. Do you run and hide or wait it out? This can't possibly happen to us? Or is it our time?
The worse part is the wait. Maybe it's an opportunity in deguise, maybe it's a reality check. Don't take anything for granted? Be stronger? All in all, right now I'm in the calm, waiting...waiting...waiting.
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It's been months since an update. A lot of things have happened, worst news of my life to best days of my life. It's a real test of what I am capable of. I can fold like a house of cards and do it for my own. I'm young, I still do not know everything about myself. It takes time and many situations. I thought I had issues when I was 18. MAN do I have issues at 24. Enough seems to never be enough for me and it's stressful. I don't know where to draw the line to say enough is enough. Sometimes I wish I could sit still and let life take me wherever it wants too. Drawing this "path" is so hard because so many things push me away from what I want. Sometimes I push myself off. It's nice to have Charlie in my life. His attitude is that if he's going to do something he's going to be the best at it. No fussing, no questioning himself, just doing it with the right goal in mind. In the 10 years we have been best friends I thought he was magically good at everything. I thought he was just one of those people. I have just now discovered that that's his train of thought. Who know the powe of positive thinking. Never egotistical, always reserved, in good spirits, and taking the people he loves along with him. He has recently become my fiance <3.
My blogs are probably annoying to read. No one knows what I am talking about.
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Now for some of the funner things...Shopping!! I only have one thing that I've newly discovered in the past few months. Haven't really shopped due to other expenses - engagement and vehicle. I have now have bills to pay.
1 and only....Toms! So comfortable and you almost match anything. Rencently purchased in Olive Green and Black is The New Love. True to size, I normally wear a 6...sometimes a 6.5. but a 6 fit perfectly.
Here We Are
Wow this is long overdue. Months overdue.
Where do I begin? I'll start from the present and move backwards. I had a wonderful week and weekend. It was Charlie's 23rd bday!!! To be the best girlfriend ever, I got him 2 new summer outfits (that he loved mind you :)), tickets to Big Bite Night at the museum (which satisfied our curiousity about the event for the past year, I don't think we are going back), and tickets to NYC! We threw a bday bash at his Mama's house and it was a great time. Great food, comfort of drinks, and the best of all great company. It's nice to see the same faces every year, we all don't see each other every week or every month but we will all convene for birthdays no matter what. Birthday's are extremely important events. As a Hallmark card at Walgreens told me last week. "Birthdays are God's way.....(open card) of Celebrating You". So guys don't forget to celebrate your birthday and the birthdays of everyone you love.
K&J Sundries was officially sold today. 15 years of service has ended. In 15 years what do I take away? This store gave me and my sister an education. Put a roof over our head. Taught me work ethic. Has torn my family apart at times. Been that hatred of my life at times. Hmmm...what do I take away? I'm tempted to say I've taken nothing from it. It's done and over. I am now looking forward to even better days. I don't think anyone but my Sister would understand this, but this definitely is a huge deal. Maybe I'll understand what the store meant to me as time goes on and my hatred for it fades. That'll be for a later post.
Babies. I ain't got no babies, but other people got babies. I have never had children around me for long periods of time. My sister in law just had a baby boy. My cousin just moved to Houston with her baby girl. I think children as just as selfish as adults, but they have a definite advantage. They are cute and no one thinks they are crazy for throwing fits or doing whatever the hell they want. And someone will always give them whatever they want. At first being around them made me want a baby. But being around them for long periods of time has definitely scared me. I thoroughly enjoy my time alone. I cherish it. Sam is perfect.
RANDOM: Bobby Cavasos, this ones for you. I don't know if you'll ever read this, I don't care if you do, but you are a very interesting person. I can never get enough of your stories. I think you should write a book about your life. You are a great story teller! Charlie and I always say that if we just wanna sit, chill, and have a great conversation Bobby Cavasos is the man to find. You are like a brother my friend. Friends. I really love all my friends old and new. It's never a reunion, you just pick up where you left off and its like no time passed by at all. You are who you are no matter how much times passes and you see me that same way as well and we are always accepted. That's Love.
I pierced a second hole on my ear lobe. I love it and want more. I was extremely nervous, but it was almost painless.
Houston its time to welcome back summer. It feels great to wear shorts! Freaking jeans, socks, and boots. I just realized that I purchased 6 pairs of boots this winter. I really hope that next winter I restrain myself from buying any at all. Eh winter lasted way too long this year. Anyhow, I am fully welcoming summer. Selling off some old summer clothes last year and trading them in for new stuff, frolicking in the park, backyard bbqs, floating around in a pool with a mimosa/beer/margarita in hand....the possibilities are almost endless. Now the only hard part is the elusive Bikini Body! Every summer I say I'll do it, maybe this summer? :) I do now have the help of a gym membership this time.
Now for the fun stuff!!! Purchases!!! Here are some of my favorites in the past couple months.
Chanel Life Lumiere foundation - It looks like airbrush ladies. I swear.
Mac Liberty of London - The colors are fabulous. I've never liked any of their collections this much. Beauty powder in Summer Rose. Gloss in Frankly Fresh. Lipstick in Everhip. Eyeshadow in Birds and Berries. I'm love subtle colors but this goes a little bit above subtle but right under bold. The colors are so soft. If you haven't tried any of it already, give it a whirl before they are all sold out.
Louis Vuitton Brea MM - wanting a vernis for so long but never found the one until now!
Intimacy - I went gaga over the bras here. I think they are are italian bras there. It made me hate victoria's secret. Ladies if you always feel uncomfortable in your bra visit these people. These bras make me feel like I have lost 5 lbs and have a better posture. No more tugging at my bra strap because it keeps falling or boobies looking saggy.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
The McNasty
So on a whim today I purchased...clip on hair extensions!!!! They look surprising better that I expected. Back in college I found a black friend, she was tall and pretty, almost Beyonce-like. She came in every other week to Project Mgmt 420 with different hair that was extremely nice. So I said to her, "I wish I could change my hair every week, it's so boring having one hair style every 6-12 months". Beyonce told me, "Girl, just get a weave!". So I said to her, "That would be cool, but how would I do that?". Beyonce said, "Girl, my room mate can braid your hair. Just buy some hair she can braid in" I said, "Really? I'll pick some up and give you a call." So I got braided up and my hair was down to my boobies. I have to say it was one of the most uncomfortable things I've experienced. I only lasted 3 days with the braids. I had to keep patting my head to control the itch and then one night I had to have Charlie help me undo the crazy braids. Anywho, I'm happy with the clip in's but I think I have to buy another pack because my hair is so thin, I'll for sure pick up another pack before Kim's wedding. My recommendation....clip on hair extensions > weave. If you can stand the pain and forgo showering for over 24 hrs then get the weave.
Oh, another highlight of my day is that I convinced the worker at Sally's that I am a licenseDbeautician and I forgot my Sally Beautician Card at home, I saved $20 bucks! I also picked up some nail polish and some cheap mascara's at Walgreens (Wag as Kim and David would call it). Im uber excited to see what the rave about Mabelline Lash Stiletto and Lash Full and Soft is all about...I shall up date with a review later.
Ending my night is the halfpipe! Shaun White. The McNasty. He's god of the mountains. Truly changing the face of snowboarding. One day I'm going to buy a ticket to the Olympics. Until then I'll remained glued to the TV.
15 Shots
Today James fuuuuuuugged me up. This was my first dentist visit since 2007. I got a deep tissue cleaning, 2 cavities filled, and custom fitted for a night guard. Those 15 shots to the gums numbed me up for 6 hours and I felt like I had the lips of the Joker. Even my nose was numb, I absolutely hated the feeling.
I found something out about myself that I had no idea about. Apparently, me getting a night guard has resulted from me incessantly grinding my teeth at night. The doc says its mostly caused by stress. I try not to stress myself out a lot, but I guess deep down inside I still am? Work, relationships, the future in general possibly. Well I hope this night guard thing will stop that and keep my jaw from popping all the time, it's become quite annoying.
I've been watching a lot of the 2010 olympics. I love it! Today I watched curling, men's biathlon, and men's figure skating. That curling makes me want to play some shuffleboard! It's so inspiring to watch, each person has so much heart. Tears of joy to tears of failure. In any case, I wonder how it feels to even be considered an olympian? Must be nice...
Goodnite and everyone watch the olympics!!!
Nervous. This is my First Time.
My first real blog since....xanga days. I used to be so emo back then, if i could, I would go back in time and slap myself. I promise this blog will be different. So this should be at least a weekly thing, just to say how life is...
Work:
Today was the launch of Farmers new FA2 and Next Generation Home product. I was determined to hit 50 quotes but with so much to learn and so many other things to take care of during 8 hrs we only hit 25. I guess it evens out, Charlie and I each locked in 2 new homes. It's only been a day but my first impressions are good - much better price point and user friendly navigation. Hope from the shambles Farmers Texas County Mutual and Texas Family Home Policy left us in....2 years and 200 lost clients. No complaints though, just rolling with the punches. We are still so blessed to be able to still live comfortably despite the 2 yr downturn. We'll work hard no matter what. Treat others how we would want to be treated and God willing, He'll take care of us. Sounds religious huh? I am not the best Catholic, but I strongly believe in good deeds. Work Work Work. I'm devastated when clients leave me but like jayz says....on to the next one....anyone need an insurance quote?
New Year's Outlook:
"Year of the Tiger": I am supposed to have "bad luck" this year, hell I always thought I had bad luck most of my life. I think I always felt like everything I have I had to work so hard for, whether physically or emotionally. Nothing is free. Maybe that's why I am so possessive and materialistic. No, that IS why I am possessive and materialistic.
Shopping and Beauty Talk (contributing to my materialism):
I am an avid online shopper and youtube makeup and beauty tip watcher.
Louis Vuitton:
I only own one Louis Vuitton bag (Louis Vuitton Speedy in Demin), but I always watch to see what new products are out, I think ever since Marc Jacobs started to design for them I started to latch on. I love Louis Vuitton, but the fact that everyone and their mom has one make me puke. So I still stalk Louis Vuitton to one day find the bag I fall in love with with no qualms of what others my have, think or say about it. I love my denim speedy. These last two new pieces caught my eye.
1. Louis Vuitton Monogram Vernis Zippy in Vert Impression (looks like the color of puke online but, gorgeous in person, i fell in love): I love it bc of it doubles as a clutch and the pop of mute yellow just boosts me in to Spring. Since I just got my Chanel I cannot afford another pricey item. Maybe one day i'll find you on ebay.
2. Monogram Artsy GM: cute handle on the bag, but a rip off of the Gucci Horsebit Hobo. I used to love the Hosebit Hobo's but I realized it was never for me bc the bag just swallows me up. If you are tall this bag will work for you.
MAC:
1. Paint Pot in Quite Natural: great for filling in eye brows, I know for us asian ladies most of our brows are black right? Well Ive been using Clinique Brow Shaper in Charcoal for as long as i've been wearing makeup and I am realizing that its my brow looks too defined. For a soft shape I love this paint pot color, good for summer. Highly recommend since it can double as an eye shadow was well.
2. Viva La Glam Lipstick in GaGa: heard lots of online buzz about how every girl should have this in her train case. Meh not for me, its basically a barbie pink color. You could find this barbie pink color anywhere else in my opinion, but for a good cause with 100% of proceeds benebiting aids awareness.
Hm I've talked a lot.
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